Feels

Learning the importance of being honest about feelings and the state of my heart. 

It's easy to stuff down emotions when they seem like "too much" because of wanting to stay in control. Even as a woman, the struggle to not say too much or to be rational in order to maintain power can result in twisted thought systems. It's easy to become numb from not being honest about weakness because of not knowing how truly loved we are. 

If we get out the hard stuff, we can really experience the good stuff. For example, I just got all my feelings out and then thought about how funny it would be if I could have a trampoline to get in my top bunk to go to sleep every night, and I belly laughed about it for like 5 minutes by myself in my room.

We are all weird and human. 

Maturity has to come the right way. You gotta fall down and get some scrapes if you want to be Tony Hawk. You can't just ignore the baby-ness and hope it goes away. It's gotta be pushed through. Emotions don't need to be acted on, but they shouldn't be ignored. 

I am done with being numb. I want to give eeeeeeeverything to Jesus, falling into His love and experiencing how deep and wide it is.